Special words to my Mother

 THE TROUBLE IS TEMPORARY

The trouble is temporary. We all face difficulties that don’t look like they’ll ever change. It seems like the more we pray the worse it gets. It’s easy to live discouraged and accept that is not meant to be, but our troubles are small and won't last long. 

No one intends to write cancer into their life story – and it’s not easy news for anyone to hear. It is likely to challenge you physically, mentally, and emotionally, but it won’t take your hat away. You are still you, and you’ll always remain the same.  

Mama, it's been six years since you diagnosed with breast cancer, and it still feels like a nightmare. Even after all the doctor appointments, it doesn't seem real. I'm looking at you as I write this, and I can see how much has changed since you diagnosed with cancer. Your energy has decreased, and you always want space away from me and everyone else so we don't have to see the pain you're in, but we already know. On the other hand, I can also see how little has changed but your smile is still warm, your laugh is still contagious and lights up an entire room. The most important thing that I know hasn't changed is how much you love me.

Cancer changes your perspective in life, be open to the change in perspective. Maybe this is your wake up call, maybe it isn’t. Whatever it is, be open to it and allow it to come in, embrace it. When you get through this – and you will – take time to appreciate where you have been. Feel proud of what you have achieved and overcome, but most importantly, always remember to give yourself grace. 

You may think it’s already been a long time. That means you are very close to seeing it turn around, you are on the verge of a breakthrough your cancer. It will not happen overnight but soon things are going to change. When you have this soon mentality, you’ll wake up each morning with expectancy, knowing that this could be the day that things will work. Even in cancer, you are enough.